A thousand hobbies, zero certainty, and too many ideas: the story of how I tried to organize my creative chaos

Since I was a child, I always had a lot of energy. I joined skating, karate (twice at different times because my parents insisted I follow my cousins' example), modeling, theater, salsa classes... and I spent over two years in scouts. However, I struggled to focus on one thing; I wanted to do everything and be everywhere. Sometimes I feel like I had ADHD vibes; I have no proof, but no doubts either.

I've always been drawn to art. I loved painting and drawing at home. One activity truly captured my heart: at 13, I joined a folk dance group and took contemporary dance classes. It was love at first sight. I stayed with the group for over four years, which was a big achievement for me. The diversity and constant exploration of new styles—pop, hip hop, ballet, contemporary dance, and more than fifteen traditional folk dances—kept me engaged and excited.

Then came the real challenge: choosing a career path. What should I do with my life?

I had many ideas. I wanted to be a dermatologist because I admired my dermatologist’s success or become a professional dancer and someday dance for Rihanna or Lady Gaga or appear on “So You Think You Can Dance.” I also thought about studying computer systems because I focused on this in high school. But despite wanting to be many things, I also felt like I didn’t want to be anything. I didn’t know my real options, except I was sure I was bad at math, so any career involving numbers seemed out of reach. Still, the idea of having a title like "engineer" and the status that came with it appealed to me. Can you see the pattern? Multipotentiality at its best: wanting to do everything at once.

After high school, I tried many things: cheerleading at university, Arabic dance, ballet, dancehall, South American folk dance, hip hop, a sociopolitical school for women, and back to Arabic dance. Now, in 2025, I tried figure skating for a month, didn’t continue, and joined folk dance for three months but already left. If reading this post makes you anxious, imagine how I felt.

Back to my professional path: after high school, I studied a two-year systems technology course. But my first job was in customer service for e-learning, not in programming, and I didn’t like it. So, I switched gears and returned to arts. I studied art for five years and became a teacher. I found out I was really good at it, naturally supporting and guiding others. I worked in different roles: special education, curriculum design, art teaching, lead teacher, and inclusion and intercultural topics.

Then came the biggest challenge: financial stability. I needed an extra income. In 2024, I felt motivated to start a business, but I didn’t know what to sell or how. People had brilliant ideas and great businesses, while all I had was enthusiasm but no clarity. Being creative, I thought: maybe design clothes? (I don’t know how to sew and don’t have a machine). Or bridal veils? I designed three unique bridal veils that turned out beautifully, and the idea thrilled me. But I lacked consistency, motivation, and direction. The idea lasted two or three months; I created the brand, bought sewing materials, designed the website, took product photos, and then it faded away.

Luckily, I note down every idea I have, even if it seems silly. In Notion, I have a page called "ventures" with idea lists: “pet clothes,” “skirts lovers,” book ideas I want to write, and services. This is my mental explosion, chaotic but real. Until all that chaos started making sense.

My personal experiences journal began transforming. I decided to turn multipotentiality, disorder, and overflowing energy into something real: a notebook of thoughts, ideas, and advice. A shared space for people like me, who feel lost or overwhelmed, looking for structure or a spark of creative clarity.

After much exploration, my focus became clear: to express everything I have experienced. My mistakes, discoveries, and achievements. All of this can help others who feel like I did.

From that overflowing energy, three programs came to life, which I love deeply, and can hardly believe I built with such soul and structure. I think I put into them everything I needed or wanted to hear.

That's how "Reset for Educators" was born (what I wished to hear when I felt lonely as a teacher), "Conscious Roots: Balanced Families" (what I understood after interacting with hundreds of children and seeing their inner worlds and what I want to share to genuinely help their families), and "Before Choosing: Vocational Clarity" (what would have helped me when I didn't know how to choose among my interests).

This is all personal, but I want to share it with the world. So, here it is, for anyone curious. We’ll keep moving forward. We’ll see what new ideas come as I manage my 500 hobbies. But well… that’s another story.